My new start...

Hey everyone,
So I promised to update you all about everything that has been going on. It has been a lot. I have changed a lot as well. Here we go.

Update on Goals:

• So in June 2013 I moved up to my friends house and moved in with her and her family. The plan was to stay there over the summer and find a job and apartment. Well that didn't pan out the way I wanted it. I ended up staying there until March 2014. T.T In February I got my own car. A 2001 Chrysler PT Cursier. I didn't realize how much problems I was going to have with the car up until now. Ugh. In July 2013 I got a job at a grocery store. It was a good job in the beginning. Then I started to feel like a drone and not having enough time to do things. Between work and school I haven't had much time for anything really. 
• In March 2014 my friend and I signed a lease on an apartment. WHOOOHOOOO!!!! It is tough managing money for bills and car problems. I really want this, but I didn't know how stressful and drowning this whole adult thing is. 
• As for my art...... Well..... I am not sure were to begin on that. I have had no inspiration. My mind has been so dark and broken I am not sure what to do.

Update on Commissions:

      So I have no idea what I am going to do with this. I am thinking of starting an Etsy account and see what happens. I make all kinds of things, i just don't know what people want. What do you think?

Update on Life:

   I haven't been in a good place for a while now. Life has just been so overbearing and I don't know how to push back anymore. Being 20 and not really making something of myself really puts me in a sour state of being. I know I am going to school to be an illustrator and trying to make myself into an artist. But.... What have I been doing with my life? No boyfriend, barely any friends, no ambition; what am I? I am so lost I don't even know where my path is. Ugh it all sucks.

Update an Art:

    If you haven't been following, I have done really nothing for art work. I am so upset about it. Like what am I doing with my life? Am I really going to make something out of my self or just be a bum? I don't know the answer to that. But I know that I want to be an artist no matter what. But where do I begin again?

      So enough with the depressing stuff. I have made a schedule for making my blog. Wednesday is going to be discussions and critics about art. Anything goes. Please feel free to summit suggestions for me to talk about. Saturdays is going to be about my work and life. You'll get updates about all the good, the bad, and the ugly that is going on with me. So starting this Saturday there is going to be a massive post about my art work from over the school year and what I have done in my own time. There also will be more of an update on way is doing on in my wonderland. Please ask questions about me and anything you want to know. (Sometimes I think I am just talking to the clouds >.<)

Until Saturday! Bye-Bye!

~Suzanna